nyssa

So, I have decided that something must be done! LOL, I have to learn to get up earlier in the morning. I mean, I would love to wake up early enough to get an exercise tape in…but mostly I would love to wake up  early enough to be able to eat breakfast!

Don’t get me wrong, I have been good about grabbing something to eat at my desk usually…but this morning I just didn’t want anything out of the vending machine…sigh the calories make me sick. So, the moral to my story is, I AM HUNGRY! and that makes me sad… .:sadface:. I have a break in an hour and a half, so I am just gonna drink some water for now and grab a yogurt at 10.

I think that is my goal for the week- I need to wake up at least 1 hr before I am supposed to leave so that I have time to get ready AND eat breakfast…..sigh….

Have a great day buddies!

Hey there Buddies!

Things are going well on the Home front. Actually it was a really good weekend. I got a lot done around the house and such. Actually it was really interesting. Last night when I was finally able to look around and see all of my progress I feel really…I dunno…. accomplished? It is like something clicked for me all of the sudden and I realized all sorts of little changes I have been making over the last couple of days to take care of myself. I think this is a really good start to help with my weight loss. I am just taking time for myself to do little girly things like paint my nails….stuff like that. I know, I know it sounds silly, but I am somewhat of a tomboy- so for me to take the time to do stuff like this, well it is a sign that I have stepped in the right direction.

 MORE good news! Yesterday I was trying to figure out some info on a pattern and so I had to take my measurements again….I have lost an average of 1 inch of each of my measurements, since last week!! Yayayaya!! Hurray!!! woo hoo!!! I so needed that, after my bummer weigh in. But like all of you have said so many times before….the scale DOES NOT know all.

 So woo woo for all of us! It is goin to be a good morning!

.:SOB:. Well, it was not a good weigh in day for me buddies. Not only did I not lose, but I have gain back the weight…yep, it is amazing how 2 little pounds can have such an effect on a girl. But here I am 280 again. I promised myself that I wouldn’t ever get to 280 again! I am so disappointed in myself, not only for gaining it back but for letting down my teams. .:Sad face:.

 The good news is, I think the majority of it is water weight. The Adema in my ankles and feet has tripled in the last two days. Yes, it is because I haven’t been taking care of myself. My fault. But this is a some what easy fix-

So I have finally come to the realization that I can’t just sit around anymore. It isn’t fair to me, and it isn’t fair to all of you, Buddies, all of you who are working so hard to meet your goals.

I have really fought to not tell my family about my decision to lose the weight, mostly because they have heard it all before, and I always give up. I feel like I am doing that again. BUT please bare with me Buddies, I am declaring a new start to stay OP again, and I hope that yall aren’t too disappointed in me.

Much love, Have a great weekend!

Nys

Does anyone else sometimes wonder what it would be like to walk down a quiet hallway and not hear the swish swish of fabric when your thighs rub together???

 I think that will be another thing on the list of things to notice when I am smaller…..

Good Morning Buddies!!!

 I started my morning by reading a very interesting article on Yahoo about the corrilation for obesity and weight gain in friends (I think it was on MSN yesterday). Altho I thought that the study was interesting. It brought up some conserns for me. First, let me start by saying that I AM obese. This is a problem that I have struggled with my entire life, so I am not some tiggy little thing who doesn’t understand how hard it is. Frankly, it just seems like there are so many people right now looking for excuses on why they have let their bodies get out of control. They are passionately looking for a gene that would explain obesity in families….Drugs to treat the disorder??? Pills to help treat people because Eating healthy and working out just isn’t working….

Does anyone else just want to say “STOP!!!”? I mean look at the people we have here in out little community, we are all hard working individuals who have made a commitment to getting healthy. Yes, some are taking some pills to help them along the way, but I know that they are working just as hard as the rest of us. I have yet to see anyone make the excuse that they just can’t do it, because it is in their blood. Come on now!

Please understand, I am not trying to bash anyone, or make anyone feel bad. I just wish that people would take responsibility for thier own actions. I am obese because I don’t eat right and I don’t exercise the way I should. If I want to be healthy and thin I must realize that I have to change ME. End of story.

Whew, Thank you for letting me get that off my chest Buddies- I wish you all a very happy and healthy day!

Ok, so yesterday I was a complete whimp. Not only was I hurting pretty bad, but I totally turned to the comfort food to help deal with the hip pain. How stupid is that?? First of all, being heavy is part of the reason my hip does this….second of all, guess what?? Eating all that junk DIDN’T MAKE THE PAIN GO AWAY! Sigh, so now I am totally bummed that I didn’t behave myself yesterday.

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 Sigh, I know that I just need to pick myself up and keep going. The good news is, I can actually walk almost normal today and the pain isn’t as bad, Hurray!! So today I need to get back on the wagon.

 Just thought I would share! Hope yall are having a great Wednesday!!

Man, Oh man….I know I have mentioned in my last couple of blogs that I have been moving. While it is fantastic to be in a new place and all that, words can not discribe how sore I am. I am finally done with everything…well not unpacking, but the moving part. The only problem now is that I managed to pull a muscle in my bad hip, so that is going to take a while to heal.

I think that while I know I need to take it easy and recover, I also need to work on strengthing that muscle, so I am gonna start working some light yoga. I have had this problem before, and most of it is just that the muscle is too short, and needs to be stretched,  gee that sounds like oh so much fun. But it must be done!

Anyways, I have been working my booty off this week and I can’t wait to weigh in on Friday….Hopefully I will see some good numbers!

Good Morning  Buddies!!

 I feel like I have been out of touch with the world this weekend! Unfortunately, my new apartment does not have any wireless that I can steal. So, sadly I am just completely out of touch. The good news is, I am almost completely moved in!

 So Friday I was working on the move, when my honey called to tell me he was back in the hospital. Geez, talk about giving a girl a heart attack! He is going to be fine, but the tube they had down his throat had caused some scarring, so they had to go in and remove it. So he was in the hospital and wanted me to come down and see him. OKC is about an hour away from my town, so I ended up sleeping at the hospital Friday night, and needless to say that put me a little behind schedule. It was so worth it tho, we went through a rough patch right after he woke up from his coma, and I hadn’t seen him in 7 weeks, so nice to be able to see him and talk to him (until 3  in the morning!).

Anyways, Saturday was all about the move. I swear I must have lost 5 pound in one day, I was going up and down those stairs in that heat. WOW! But I did drink a ton of water too- which is good. So yay for that! The down side is, I think I got a touch of heat stroke, because when I woke up yesterday I was sick to my stomach and couldn’t really eat anything. But I am feeling better today-

 So all in all, it was a great weekend, and I am hoping to be able to keep up the physical activity. Hey, Now that I started, I should just run with it!

 Much Love,

Nys

 First off, the move is going well! I should be completely in my new apt by Saturday and Unpacked by Sunday (I hope). I am so excited that I am almost done. The truth is, I am so excited that I lay away at night thinking of where I am gonna put stuff, and how I am goin to orginize everything, and I can’t get to sleep…What can I say, I am easily entertained. So, needless to say, that is going really well.

On that note, and I have mentioned this before. I am SO SORE. Those stairs are both the devil on the left and the angel on the right shoulders for me. On the one hand, every time that I climb them I think of how good it is working all those muscles, but on the other hand, it is killing me. Then I was reminded of something- The last time I started working out and busting my booty I was at the gym all the time. Like so many people, I would sit out in my car and have to talk myself into actually going in. I am so overweight that going to the gym not only meant the embarrasement of other people looking at me, but also the physical pain that I had to put myself through to work out. Then one day, about 2 weeks into my Gym membership I looked up (while on the bike, 2 miles into my “ride”) and I saw a t-shirt with a MARINE saying on it. “Pain is weakness leaving the body” Now, I don’t know what it was, but at that moment, I completely took it to heart. Suddenly all of that pain I was feeling (not the you are pushing your self TOO hard pain, just the you are actually pushing yourself pain) became motivation for me. I was finally taking an agressive approach to working out, whether it was anger (I worked out instead of fighting with my family) or simple motivation of ridding my self of weakness. It really worked well for me.

 So, why am I taking down memory lane? Some where down the road, I lost sight of that motivation, and I came across it the other day and have been getting into that vibe again and thought I would share.

Have a great weekend Buddies!!!

Good Morning everyone!

 Well, I have all kinds of good news this morning! First off- They actually gave me keys yesterday so I could start moving, Horray!!!!! So me and  a girlfriend took two hours yesterday and moved about half of my apt. and I got some stuff unpacked, including most of my way cute kitchen.

Let me tell you about the excersize I got yesterday….Oh man! I live on the second floor of the builing and I am moving to the bottom floor of the building next to me…Not a HUGE move, but I must have gone up and down those stairs 12 or 15 times. That, I must say is a good work out. Unfortunately, my UNfitness is really starting to take it’s toll, I am sore and it didn’t take much for me to get completely warn out. Sigh, but there is only one way to fix that, right?!?!

Well, I must be doing something right…..none of my clothes fit. It is a good thing, don’t get me wrong…but I am kinda mourning lossing some of them. I work in a professional environment, so I can continue to fudge it with my skirts, but the pants that keep falling down, and hanging on me…Those have to go, so sad. LOL these, are what my best friend would call Luxury problems..You know, the things people would complain about when you would love to have them? Ha~ I really do love that I am seeing results tho!

 I am so tired from working my booty off yesterday, but I know it is worth it, and this time next week I will be in my new place.

 Much love People! Have a great day!