nyssa

I sit before you, Buddies, a very frustrated woman. I have been at this life style changing experience for about 5 monthes now. It has all been very positive, and believe me, I am really trying to stay positive. But, Damn it, today was really my down fall. I didn’t make it through my step class- i know that it is good that I tried- but I couldn’t make it. SO I left in the middle…no, not the middle…more like the first quarter of class, and went to work on an eliptical instead. I don’t know what it is about today, but I really started to think about what is in store for me. I have 80 lbs to lose, 80 OF THEM!

SIgh, I don’t know why all of the sudden I am doubting my self. I am not weak…and I am trying so hard not to give up- I guess I just feel over whelmed. I am trying to stay forcused on all of the reasons why this is good- why I WANT to do this. I don’t want to hurt any more…I don’t want to be sick all the time, self conscious all the time…I want to be the girl with the personality that has a good body to. I KNOW that is the girl that I am some where under all of this.. but really, what are the stats on me actually making it??

I am sorry Buddies, I don’t mean to be a downer…I am just having a rough night today.

Ok, so I will fully admit this morning that I cheated. I went to starbucks (I had a gift card) but then I thought about what I was putting in my body. This is where you should be very proud of me buddies!! Instead of just throwing caution to the wind, like I usually do with goodies, I stopped and thought about it. I ordered a SMALL mocha with nonfat milk and NO whip, and a bran muffin. I know that it is still cheating, but I am cheating with a concious. However you spell it.

 I hope yall have a great day!

Good morning buddies!!!

 I was doing a little quiet reflection this morning…well, reading a note from my buddy Angela (AMAZING!) through blurry eyes at 645 this morning. She is so sweet, she was checking in with me b/c I haven’t been on as much as I should. Anyways, she was just makin sure I was alright, but the cool thing is…it made me really realize that being on here is great, not only for support, but also to hold yourself accountable for what you are doing.

So, here it is…I am have been some what MIA b/c I am embarrased that I haven’t been getting to the gym. Ok, not embarrassed, but def. dissappointed. I think the only way to continue to progress is to own up to it tho, so here I am…I AM going to get back to the Gym. Period. No ifs, ands, or buts.

The good news is: in the two weeks that I haven’t been able to go- I have only gained back 1.75 inches…that will come off easy.

 Much love Buddies! You are the Best!

Nys

Aww, Come on- Some one has to give me some Yellow Submarine love!!! Ha Ha

 I know, I know, I sound rather chipper now….but I was a raving maniac last night. My poor Mom… I was horrible.  I think it was a combination of a lot of things, I am trying to kick a cold, I was tired, I was cold, and I missed my work out. I know it sounds silly, esp. that last one…but here is the crazy thing. I was still grumpy this morning, but when I went to work I rearranged my whole office (moved the desk and everything) well, I guess it got some endorphins going or something, b/c I am in a much better mood now. So that is good. Sigh, everything still smells like hampsters (that is another story completely) but it is getting to be a little brighter today.

I hope yall are having a good day!!!

Good morning Buddies!!!

I am so excited!! I went to the gym for the second day in a row this week….AND I pushed my self, pushed and pushed…and Guess what???? 20 minutes on the Cross ramp….AND 30 more minutes on the Tredmill…YEAH baby!!! I am really working on eating better so that I can actually make progress…but I am getting there!!! YAY!

I feel great! Hope yall have a great day!!

Good Morning Buddies!

 I am so excited!!!  I went to the gym last night and did something that I have been striving for-

Let me start at the beginning, when I first started at the gym I was using the bike as my cardio…well, my personal Trainer told me that I needed to use something that had me standing up (b/c I sit all day) So I started on the tredmill…..every time I used the tredmill I would look at the Elipticals and the cross trainers and think two things….1) I want to do that! and 2) Those are gonna hurt me so bad! SO, I have been easing myself into it…five minutes, then 10, I did 15 minutes on one last night!!! AND that was after 30 minutes on the tred mill! Yeah baby!!!

But I think the best thing about the gym last night was that I was pushing myself…. I am so used to giving up on myself…but last night I kept saying, you can do this! only 5 more minutes!!!!

Anyways, I was proud of myself…..

Hope yall have a great day!!!!

Good Morning Buddies!

 IT is a busy day so I will make  it quick…. So, yesterday was my birthday. I love that time of year, because I get to see my whole family and enjoy their company. But yet again, this was a year that I have not reached my goal, or been able to stand proud as a healthy, happy individual. Grrrr, I don’t mean to sound all depressive, it really was a great day…..I don’t know….I just REALLY REALLY want this to be the last birthday in over 225. I want it so bad! and I KNOW I can do it….I just HAVE to do it!!

Well, thanks for listening  to me buddies- You are all so Great!!!! Have a wonderful day!

Good Morning Buddies!  IT is a busy day so I will make  it quick…. So, yesterday was my birthday. I love that time of year, because I get to see my whole family and enjoy their company. But yet again, this was a year that I have not reached my goal, or been able to stand proud as a healthy, happy individual. Grrrr, I don’t mean to sound all depressive, it really was a great day…..I don’t know….I just REALLY REALLY want this to be the last birthday in over 225. I want it so bad! and I KNOW I can do it….I just HAVE to do it!! Well, thanks for listening  to me buddies- You are all so Great!!!! Have a wonderful day!