nyssa

Good Evening everyone!!!

 I feel great!! I just got back from my last workout at my own gym- 25 minutes on the elliptical and 30 minutes with weights. I am also learing the wonderful world of On Demand programming, the excersize programs on here are AMAZING!!!

Anyway, just wanted to check in with everyone and say hello! Feel great, be happy!

 Nys

So, it has seemed to hit me in the head that it is almost summer already. I work at a school, and all of my kids are gearin up to be done for the year. Yes, this means another summer of me looking like a WHALE in shorts, tanks, and a bathing suit.

 I am looking at it in a different light this year tho. Yes, I have failed to reach my goals, and YES I am not even close. BUT, instead of just giving up and hiding all summer, I am going to take advantage of the wonderful weather and get my Booty in gear. I joined the SELF challenge today- Had to fudge my numbers a bit so they would let me participate, but hey- whatever, I know not to do anything that would be dangerous to my health. Also, I go in to see my doctor tomorrow for my physical, and I am going to sit down and seriously talk to her about weight loss.

I have taken some Buddies’ advice and decided to start all over- I changed my weight ticker to refect my starting date being today, and I am starting all the things that I have started over and over again….BUT it is the summer, and I am ready to start enjoying my life!

Much love Buddies! Have a great day!

Good morning buddies.

I sit before you today a little on the panicked side. I weighed in on Friday 3 pounds under 300. That is so scary for me. I am the heaviest that I have ever been right now, and I feel like if I hit that 300 I will be done for. There is so much going on at home right now, and I know that working out and succeeding in some of my goals is just what I need, but every night when I get home from work I just go in and sleep. It is sick, but sleeping just seems like the only way I can get away from all of the things I can’t control. Then there is the binging… Sigh, I know I know!!! The binging makes me feel worse! But I am just at the end of my rope here…These extra 12 pounds that I have put on this month is really starting to make a difference and i am starting to feel it more and more.

 I am sorry, Buddies, I don’t mean to be down today…I am just frustrated and angry at myself.

 I hope yall have a better day than I am having!

Soooooo,  I have been thinking….and I just realized that, while I haven’t stuck with the plan the way I wanted to- I have worked out 2x a week for the last 3 weeks….Yes, I know I need to do more than that, but hey, it is better than no times a week!! LOL I just thought it was exciting, I am well on my way to acheiving a habit!

 So, my standards of living a healthy life are getting better- I didn’t drink any soda yesterday. I had a magarita with dinner, which was bad- I know…but NO soda!! Yay! I am already working on my water at 7 am this morning and had a good breakfast. Taking Yogurt with me to work for my snack.

 All is well buddies! I hope you are having a great day too!!!

Good Morning Buddies!

 So I had a very enlighting weekend! My cousin (the very smart one) and I were talking about finishing finals at school and she was talking about the difference between one person’s failure and another. The truth is, failure is different for everyone. It all depends on what your personal standard is. To some people getting a B on a test is failing…because they have let them selves down. Others work on the belief that “C’s get degrees”. I am willing to admit that I am part of the latter group. More so, in my weight loss journy, I have always had that little voice in the back of my head that said, “you are never actually going to do this, so it is ok to give up.” Sadly, the standard that I hold myself to is completely co-dependant on that little devil sitting on my left shoulder.

Well, I have started to really hate what I have become, I have gained 10 pounds in one month! I have managed to eat myself into a coma nearly every day since my friend left, and am really feeling the weight in my every day activities now. I don’t like it.

So I am starting to change my thinking, it started last night and has continued on today. I am taking it day by day and really focusing on accomplishing every goal that I set for myself on a daily basis. It is time that I started believing in myself, started holding myself accountable for my actions and giving myself the standards that push me to succeed.

 Have a great day buddies!!