Time to get back in gear
Hey there Buddies!! I am sorry I have been MIA for a while. I stand before you a much heavier woman that you previously knew me. Unfortunately I have gained 20 lbs since April 15th. Yeah, that is 3 months….that can’t be healthy… LOL. Seriously tho, the gain has cause me to pull into myself some what and I haven’t really been interacting much with the outside world. I stepped on the scale today and the digital reader read 307 back at me- which is sad…because last week I lost 2 lbs and now I gained them, plus 5 more…Sigh-
I am trying to pull something positive out of this tho- I am taking this weekend to get life back under control. I am going to get some cleaning done and get my life back on track- I have been evaluating my life lately….I am so sick of the regrets I have about things I could have done but missed out on when I was younger. I think the worst regret I could ever have is to look back when I am 25 (2 short years from now) and know that I could have done something about how awful I feel and didn’t. That is part of my problem is that I have such a hard time commiting to….well…anything. Sadly I do have a self esteem issue and in the back of my mind I don’t really believe that I can do this. But, really, what is my alternative? I am missing out on all the things that I love to do right now- I am afraid to go out dancing because of the extra weight I have gained- I don’t fit into any of my clothes…Sigh…it is an ugly situation.
So, I am going to try to get my stuff together this weekend and get back on a healthy path…I don’t want to miss out on life over something as silly as weight.
I hope you have a wonderful weekend buddies!!
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You know I am always here for you Nyssa…You are welcome back to the Diamonds if you think it would help…
Good to see you back. My heart goes out to you as I’m reading your blog. You sound like a really special person with much to offer others.
Don’t give up on yourself- you can come back and accomplish your goals. You can do it! Everything happens for a reason, right? Things will always get better. Have a good weekend, girl!
Glad you are back. You can be a ROCKSTAR if you want a fresh start
Haha….Truly, Nyssa…you can ultimately do this. Look ahead to what you have waiting in your future. You will drive yourself crazy if you worry about the past and even the past of your future self. Take it one day at a time. One goal at a time 
Can’t believe my own sister is trying to recruit you….
Sneeky sneeky….LOL you girls make me laugh!! But that is the best medicine after all!! Thank you!!