nyssa

So, it has seemed to hit me in the head that it is almost summer already. I work at a school, and all of my kids are gearin up to be done for the year. Yes, this means another summer of me looking like a WHALE in shorts, tanks, and a bathing suit.

 I am looking at it in a different light this year tho. Yes, I have failed to reach my goals, and YES I am not even close. BUT, instead of just giving up and hiding all summer, I am going to take advantage of the wonderful weather and get my Booty in gear. I joined the SELF challenge today- Had to fudge my numbers a bit so they would let me participate, but hey- whatever, I know not to do anything that would be dangerous to my health. Also, I go in to see my doctor tomorrow for my physical, and I am going to sit down and seriously talk to her about weight loss.

I have taken some Buddies’ advice and decided to start all over- I changed my weight ticker to refect my starting date being today, and I am starting all the things that I have started over and over again….BUT it is the summer, and I am ready to start enjoying my life!

Much love Buddies! Have a great day!

Good morning buddies.

I sit before you today a little on the panicked side. I weighed in on Friday 3 pounds under 300. That is so scary for me. I am the heaviest that I have ever been right now, and I feel like if I hit that 300 I will be done for. There is so much going on at home right now, and I know that working out and succeeding in some of my goals is just what I need, but every night when I get home from work I just go in and sleep. It is sick, but sleeping just seems like the only way I can get away from all of the things I can’t control. Then there is the binging… Sigh, I know I know!!! The binging makes me feel worse! But I am just at the end of my rope here…These extra 12 pounds that I have put on this month is really starting to make a difference and i am starting to feel it more and more.

 I am sorry, Buddies, I don’t mean to be down today…I am just frustrated and angry at myself.

 I hope yall have a better day than I am having!

Soooooo,  I have been thinking….and I just realized that, while I haven’t stuck with the plan the way I wanted to- I have worked out 2x a week for the last 3 weeks….Yes, I know I need to do more than that, but hey, it is better than no times a week!! LOL I just thought it was exciting, I am well on my way to acheiving a habit!

 So, my standards of living a healthy life are getting better- I didn’t drink any soda yesterday. I had a magarita with dinner, which was bad- I know…but NO soda!! Yay! I am already working on my water at 7 am this morning and had a good breakfast. Taking Yogurt with me to work for my snack.

 All is well buddies! I hope you are having a great day too!!!

Good Morning Buddies!

 So I had a very enlighting weekend! My cousin (the very smart one) and I were talking about finishing finals at school and she was talking about the difference between one person’s failure and another. The truth is, failure is different for everyone. It all depends on what your personal standard is. To some people getting a B on a test is failing…because they have let them selves down. Others work on the belief that “C’s get degrees”. I am willing to admit that I am part of the latter group. More so, in my weight loss journy, I have always had that little voice in the back of my head that said, “you are never actually going to do this, so it is ok to give up.” Sadly, the standard that I hold myself to is completely co-dependant on that little devil sitting on my left shoulder.

Well, I have started to really hate what I have become, I have gained 10 pounds in one month! I have managed to eat myself into a coma nearly every day since my friend left, and am really feeling the weight in my every day activities now. I don’t like it.

So I am starting to change my thinking, it started last night and has continued on today. I am taking it day by day and really focusing on accomplishing every goal that I set for myself on a daily basis. It is time that I started believing in myself, started holding myself accountable for my actions and giving myself the standards that push me to succeed.

 Have a great day buddies!!

Good Morning Good Morning!!

 I don’t know why, but I had a hell of a time getting on here today. Meh, oh well- Here I am. So I have enlisted my cousin to keep me going in my weight loss journey. She is so cute, she has lost 3 dress sizes in the last couple of monthes by workin out and watching her carbs and such (what a novel concept, right!?!?!) She is amazing, and I love her to death. Anyways, she and I were talking on Saturday and she kept telling me, “just take baby steps…keep working at it” I know I know, it sounds silly…but something just kinda clicked. So, I got up this morning and did a 20 minute Turbo Jam work out. I feel FANTASTIC! Today is going so much better.

 SOOOOO, on the flip side of all of this. My work out is helping me pull my self out of this little back hole I let myself slip in to. YAY! So, now that I am starting to get things under control, I am ready to go after it! I have class today- but before I go there I am gonna go clean out my car. Then when I get home I am going to get some laundry done. I swear Buddies, the depression gnomes have left my house in complete shambles!

 You are all fabulous! And I hope you have a great day!

Good Morning People!!!

 I am having a fantastic day! Had some good news come down the pike yesterday- but I don’t want to say anything until I know more. Anyway, needless to say, I am in much higher spirits now than I was.

 I do, however, need to cut the crap today about my weight loss. The honest to God truth is- I can barely afford to eat the cheap crap right now…let alone fruit and veggies that I need to lose weight. I am trying my hardest to drink plenty of water (cause it’s free!) and stay active through out this craziness…but buddies, I just can’t seem to get it under control right now. I love being here with all of your support, and I love supporting you all, but I hope that you aren’t terribly disappointed in me!

Anyways, things are changing and it is all going to work out here very soon! Have a great day!

Yes, that’s right buddies, I worked out this morning again! Hooray for me! LOL I am just so excited, I took your advice and when my alarm went off this morning I just thought of how amazing I felt yesterday and off I went! They say that you have to do something 27 times for it to become a habit- Well, I have done this 2 days in a row, so I only have 25 more days until I am officially in the habit of working out in the morning. YAY!

I am so excited… This is the first time that I have been realistic about my weight loss and my goals. I am being conservative, setting weekly goals that I know I can reach. I am also doing my best not to think to much in the future. I have a tendancy to get overwhelmed and give up if I think 40 lbs down the road…and so on. I really do feel like I am gonna do it this time, and that feeling is fantastic!

Well I gotta go fill my water bottle- Have a great day Buddies!

Good morning buddies!

 I am reporting to you this morning as a new woman! I am sad to say that I let the depression get to me this weekend. I was a completely slug and didn’t do ANYTHING…but managed to eat EVERYTHING.

This morning was AMAZING, I finally busted the Turbo Jam out of it’s plastic packaging this morning. MAN ooh MAN do I have a lot of energy this morning. I feel really motivated now! Yay! Now if I could just get myself out of bed every morning for it….

I hope that you are all having a wonderful day!

Ok Buddies, so I am feeling so motivated this week! My little project yesterday really helped me put things into prospective. On my calendar I put my goal as 2 lbs a week… and the more I thought about it, the more I realized how attainable that is!! I am drinking a ton of water, actually I drank 24 oz of it in an hour at school last night with out even realizing what I was doin, and I am trying to watch what I eat and snack healthy. The second part to my plan of attack is to start working out hard core tomorrow. I have all that wonderful Turbo jam stuff, but haven’t even pulled it out of the plastic packaging…Geez! But it is a new start, and I can totally do 2 lbs a week! YAY me!

I am really excited about the rewards I am giving myself too- I think I will be able to stick with it this time!

Have a great day Buddies!

So, I just had a great idea and I thought I would share it with you.

SO, my hotmail e-mail has a personal calendar attached to it that I never use. So, today I took the time to go through and set my weekly goals on it. I went ALL the way through to my Goal weight (which I should meet before Christmas, what a great present right?). Anyways, then I went through and put in my rewards for every 20 lbs I loose. Things like Getting a new piercing (I really want my nose but we will see), buying 500$ worth of new clothes (hey if I start saving now I bet I could have that much by then), and when I loose 60 of my 68 lbs I am going to treat myself to a day at the spa. Then of course, My final goal wieght, I am going to buy myself new clothes, and get a tattoo that I have wanted for about a year now.

The best part about my calendar is that I have it set to pop up a reminder on my regular weigh in days- I can Track my progress and compare it to my goals.

 Yay! I hope yall find this interesting, cause I am excited!